Everyday (said to the tune of Dave Matthews Band)

Grown up life can be very complicated.

I have time to sit and to think but not enough time to do.

The job I currently have only pays well when I work enough overtime for three people and even then I am just barely getting by.

This same job is impeding my ability to do the artwork that I crave to do, and said artwork can only be done when I shut out family and friends and all prospective outings and just work. For myself. And I realize now that this is kind of necessary, not to say that family isn't important, because they are, as are friends that enrich our lives and make us feel better about ourselves. But sometimes you have to swallow the disappointment and shoulder the blame of your own self sabotage and realize that you, and your work, are that important, and I'm not talking about the work of playing Zelda on a 9 hr mission, or of searching for a bodega that's open at 2am because your lighter is out of fluid and you're  all out of matches (although both are admirable shows of perseverance). 

However, sometimes we have to do what is difficult and most arduous in order to succeed and make it to our goals, and once we make it, well then, maybe that game of Zelda won't seem so trivial after all....

Here's to hopin'!

TGihT

Toootally

Totally exhausted, 

Cannot sleep.

Kinda hungry,

Will not eat.

Need some attention,

Before I weep,

With miles and hours,

Before I creep...

Sigh, if I'm lucky....

That has pretty much been my week. Now where is the sleep that attacked me on the train, hijacking my face and body into a forced coma? Alas, away it has gone....Guess it means I'll be here with you guys instead (toootally not said with underlying ire at my insomniatic state.)

Nevertheless....

Hi dear friends! Did you miss me? Considering I have as of yet, no followers to speak of and only two likes on Facebook (four if you count myself and my mother), this sentiment will most likely go unanswered. Despite this, I do feel obliged to give you all a recap of the past few months, and I will do so now in cinematic overtone.

Picture if you will.......

A girl.

 

An oven.

A bakery.

West Village, NYC.

92 degree weather outside....A million inside.....

And that's not even the best part...

There's customers - you guessed it - Smart Ones...and I'm not talking about the (healthy-ish) frozen food brand.....

So yeah, all that, been toooootally awesome and not at all suicide note worthy.

Sigh.

Anyway...sorry if we got off on the wrong foot. Watched Man of Steel earlier tonight.....toooootally trying not to pull an Oedipus right now...amazed they managed to hook actual Oscar winners for an over exploded (mind you I'm a Michael Bay fan), overly dramatic (Christopher Nolan fan too) waaaay unnecessarily dark (it's Superman fa cryin' out loud, said in true Archie Bunker form) overly hyped snail fest with a waaaay underdeveloped script......I at least pray they were paid well for all their efforts to save the cinematic Titanic I just wasted 98 mins or so (sort of) watching.....might have given myself a pedicure the remaining 32 mins...

But I digress. As always.

In these past few months I have learned quite a few valuable lessons. 

I learned that you cannot buy intelligence...anywhere.

I learned that you cannot change people, only yourself.

And today I learned (again) that if you are a curvy woman, living in New York, with 42-32-46 proportions, you are more likely to find rubies in the crown of Kennedy's Fried Chicken* than you are to find a decent pair of shorts that won't put you in Nursing Home dress code, or make your mother disown you.

Oh yeah, toooootally awesome day....at least I left (almost literal) Hell's Kitchen waaaay earlier than expected.

Sigh.

But I indeed have missed you (proverbial, general) guys! And I do hope to figure this whole blogger-y thing out enough to actually have followers so as to share in my ravings and general observations about this crazy life....I guess Mom'll have to do for now....guess I'll have to edit that line in the above poetic piece alluding to my sexual frustrations....

But at least I didn't buy the Disown Only Daughter shorts...win! 

Sigh....

Until next time,

TGihT

*Kennedy's Fried Chicken is a fast food establishment, exclusive to mainly urban outer borough areas of NYC, which sells a variety of food items at an affordable price. There is often a crown somewhere in the logo, hence ruby reference, however there also exists a sister establishment known as Crown Fried Chicken...and sometimes Pizza.

Having been to both, get the fries, they're amazing....;-)-tgiht